From MarkieAnnas Heart.

Verse from away in A Manger.

Be Near me Lord Jesus, I ask you to stay close by me forever and love me I pray!

Thank you that you have been faithful in my life for the past 31 years ,after my salvation and through my transition!

On the 10 month aniversary of the blog.

msmarkieanna.tumblr.com  ’ From MarkieAnna’s Heart”

On this day, Please allow me to remind you what the Tao has to say.

The Journey of a thousand miles, begins with just one step..

I have just begun taking steps, to be an encouragement and blessing.

Thanks to those of you who are regulars,and those who visit from time to time.

This page updates daily so please come back ,and invite your friends!

For my first timers, I am here to inspire,and be uplifting. To be a help and

encouragement.  stop back along you journey and be encouraged!

Friends

SOOO IT was great to see my film friends ,Matt,Molly,Rachel,and Sandi today.

the Legendary Matt from , steam clam.com  and  markieinmilwaukee.com.

They were in town for thanksgiving.

a quick update the Struggle..

I wrote the Struggle yesterday , because I was frustrated over the Thanksgiving day on my own .
I was with friends, chosen family, but not with blood.
I think I have sort of ascended to every day life problems, as opposed to “trans problems”
and i am now dealing with common life issues. I would think,I have matured as a person ,as well as having transitioned. Christen wrote,what you have shared with us and what you have achieved in your own life - that you have trumped the majority of us in your journey to truly be the woman that you know that you are inside.
I needed to be reminded of this today!
And Rose Ann’s,Marianne Williamson QUOTE, I am powerful beyond measure.
It is my light, not my darkness, that most frightens me.
All your responses ,serve to remind me of my fundamental principles,sometimes blurred by just being a girl.
well, I go along today reminded and encouraged.
Have a Great Day,
Hugs
Markie

Keep the Faith, sister.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves,
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn’t serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people will not feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not in just some of us;
It’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we’re liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

Marianne Williamson

The struggle..

As I sit here this Morning and review my personal pictures, and compare to others I feel so far away form womanhood.
I understand the hurdles and barriers I have had to overcome to get to the point I am today. I have friends who have said,
from where I was ,and who I was when I started and who I have become, there is a world of difference for the best.
not only on the out side but on the inside as well.
I AM 6’8 and approx. 330 lbs I began with a deep chest resonant voice, and a strict fundamental Christian background.
and not very open and honest.
I am intimidated from time to time ,because I have a lot to say and offer ,I have not done anything on a national basis.
I am pre op, which makes me feel insecure because i am not post op . post op a place where one is complete,and listened to as an expert.
I do realize that I am 3 months away from my 50th Birthday, and I do not have to act ,or look like a 20 something.
I just want to be loved and accepted for me, with no other pretense needed! I do what I can with what I have,but often it seems like its not enough!

I guess the point is , this is my life ,and I do not have to be looking for the key that unlocks he door,continuously.
All I have endured ,has been necessary and ordered as part of my path. I need to go this way.
Not a matter of want. Need means it is necessary, come what may! all of this is in my life with a reason.
So I surrender ,come what may, for whatever reason. and I will not be concerned with the outcome for that is out of my control. I have got to be me in this moment and let future take care of it self.

Hello I am MarkieAnna, I am not what I was, and I am not where I am going, But I am enjoying the process in between.
I am who I am by the grace of God,and according to his Divine Plan.so I continue forward.